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I have a little. I would not mind to try?

Do you have to pay to get started? That is what I come into?

I to wish that there was a work at home job. I want to be able to work at home and be with my kids. I have tried a lot to and it seems that when you find something it always cost you something. I just do have the extra to be able to pay out.

I also wish that I could be able to get a grant to be able to start a small business in my home town. There is nothing much her anymore I think we need something. But all start up is just so high anymore.

It has been a while since I last posted a message. My last message was very hard. We lost our little girl in 2008. That is one of the harstest things a mom and dad could have every done. I have prayed for so long that we could have something change for us and our boys.

I my self was having a very hard time staying in the same house that we had our daughter. My youngest son was too having a very hard time. My husband was but I really don't think he new he was. However, our prayers are coming around. We sold our house we have moved now to a new home. My husband has now located a new job.

I think our lives are starting for the best now. My husband seems to be so much better now our son is now using his room he is doing a lot more by his self. He is sleeping in his room, he tells us good night and go's to his room. I feel so much better that tons of weight has been lifed. We has a family seem to be better. Our oldest son is doing great he does not live at home. He did not ever really live with us unitl after her passing. I know that it bothers him with her being gone, however the youngest one they were very close just 2 years apart. Now, that my blessing are being answered. I am hoping that we can adopt now.

I am hoping that I am going to find that right little girl or boy if that is what god wants us to have. We hope that there is that one young mom that is not able to keep there child and I am hoping that I will be the one that she finds. I told my husband that I want to do this for my little girl... she aways wanted us to adopt plus she loved kids to. You would have thought she was an adult.

If anyone know of a baby or child that needs a great home. PLEASE send me a message. We are great people we come from a great family. This is one dream that yet has come true. We are hoping that we can get this now. We pray everyday. I know if its meet to be it will happen.

Thanks for all the comments that I have gotten. I am so glad that we have so many caring people in the world.

Thank you so much.... I am glad there are people that care in this world.... I miss her everyday. 

Thank you so much.... I am glad there are people that care in this world.... I miss her everyday. 

My story starts in 2007, our little girl got sick one day. She was taken by her daddy to the doctor and only was getting worse. She was then taken by EMS to the hospital. All this time I was at work, not able to get to her. Then I was taken to her at the hospital. I didn't not leave her side for more than 14 days.  She was take by air to Tulsa hospital. Where we stayed in ICU.. At this time my daughter was 4 she turn 5 in April 2007. Then to move the story up. In Jan, 2008 amost one year to the date we lost our little ladybug... she passed on Jan. 23. This was five days after her brothers birthday to make things worse for our little boy. We have an older son that his birthday is 5 days before hers. This little girl was so full of life and love to dances and go to school. There was nothing that she wouldn't do. To this day we still do not know what happen to her. She was noted that it was unknown. To live with that everyday is the hardest thing for our family to deal with. I don't know why we have to not know. My bestest problem is that we are living in the same place where we brought her home to? !!  We have just got a building up this summer but that is all that we have been able to do. My husband is trying to do all the work him self and he is working 2 jobs to make this happen. We are at a stand still right now because the job that he was using the money to by the windows has came to a stop right now. We are needing about $2000-$2500. to beable to finish the windows and the foam spray that we need to put in it.  Our goal was to be able to be in it before this Christmas.  This is the hardest thing is to stay in the same house. I just want to see her walk down the hall or sit with me and watch tv or talk.  Now, that I had to have surgery and I am not able to walk for at least another 6 weeks if all worked on the surgery. It's like it's not ment for us to have anything or even to have any pease in our lives. I just wish that I could do something to be able to make this dream to come true for my husband and sons.... mostly the youger son because he has lost so much and want a new begin.  We hope one day that we can maybe even adopt to help our another child.  I miss my daughter every mintue of my life. There is not a day gone by that I don't wish that I could have another hug, or kiss from her. Someday I will.... I know but never soon enough.  There is always something in our way not making it happen it seems. 

Ladybug5 (mom)  

***   As a mother a loss of a child is the worse in the world. I just know that it's so hard to stay in the same place where she was and knowing that she is not coming to you any more. Belive me that I know I will never for get her. When I losing her I was holding her and I can not explain that feeling to anyone other than I will never forget it and will hold on the that last moment FOREVER in my HEART!!!